Our jihad is to reclaim Islam from extremists. What is yours?

Angie Emara – Missing My Son

By on December 12, 2012 in Personal Stories with 14 Comments

If you’re struggling to protect yourself and others- that’s jihad.  I’m struggling to help my son with his life-long condition. That’s my jihad. No one can claim it isn’t.  Not the extremist and not the Islamaphobe.  Starting a war is not jihad; it’s war.  Inflicting harm on others is not jihad.  The way Islamophobia has used the word jihad is inaccurate.  There is nothing to “defeat” in jihad.  Jihad is a struggle to overcome adversity.  Jihad is an honorable thing.  It’s something that causes one to become better- to reach a more elevated state- in whatever one is struggling with.  My jihad is to push through the loss of my son to care for my other son with the same disease and simultaneously care for my other children.

My jihad was to make the decision for how to handle the diagnosis when we first found out our boys had Hunter’s Syndrome.  Our options were so slim.  At the time, my boys were 9 months and 3 years old.  We were informed by neurologists and doctors who specialized in this rare disease that if we did nothing, the disease would progress and we would witness the slow deterioration and loss of all skills and health in our boys, and ultimately their brains would shut down and die by age 9 or 10.

My jihad was to stay strong while watching my boys suffer through transplant- the difficult choice we finally made.  My jihad was to keep hope and faith they would survive it.  My jihad was, and still is, to accept the outcomes of their transplant- to accept the loss of my son Adam, who passed away just one month shy of his 5th birthday, and to move forward with my other kids.

My jihad is an ongoing struggle- harder a lot of days to stay positive yet hopeful of the unknowns.  While our youngest thankfully survived transplant, he now lives on with special needs in school and home.  My jihad is to do my best to tend to his needs with the hope that he will live on and grow, but with the uncertainty of the effectiveness of his transplant.  My really difficult jihad is seeing his beautiful face each day and being reminded of my Adam that I lost.  My jihad is to hold back the tears when I see my youngest live past Adam’s age and do things that Adam never could.  My jihad is to push forward- past the grief, past the second guessing if we did the right thing and past the worry of what’s to come.

So I’ll be darned if someone is going to come along and take my struggles, my children’s struggles- our collective jihad- and turn it into something negative or offensive.  Or try to deny that our struggles are not true jihad.  Or use an English dictionary to define to me what MY jihad is.  My jihad is to march on despite losing my son and no one can “defeat”, deny or argue that as my reality.


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  1. Riad Labadi says:

    May Allah bless you and your lovely children. You are a strong human being who has and still is facing such tremendous challenges in trying to help her children. Yes, all what you are doing is a true jihad and thank you for sharing it with us.

    • Angie Emara says:

      JAK Riad! elhamdulilah for everything, and may Allah bless you as well! Thanks so much for taking the time to comment- and sorry it’s taken me so long to say thanks!

  2. Ramsey Emara says:

    JazakAllah khair Angie, you continue to amaze so many of us as you march on in your efforts for the sake of Allah. May He bless you and reward you with the highest prize for your love and dedication to our beautiful family.

  3. Ayesha Ahmed says:

    Seen you in Sunday class…… But nice piece!

  4. Annika says:

    I just came across the MyJihad concept and as a Christ, I am happy that one (many) aim to explain what Jihad actually means. From what I hear out of your family´s story is only faith.

    So in the end, faith is what connects us. Regardless of the religion, regardless of god´s name. A strong faith is what unites people who believe.

    I include your family in my prays.

  5. John says:

    Yours is an inspiring testimony, Angie. Jesus ,pbuh, sets is the greatest example of jihad, which Christians call the Way off the Cross: for love’s accepting whatever was done too Him, involving great suffering. We believe, as we tread the same Way and meet our own sufferings as you have, that we share in His Jihad. It is written: “He who gives a cup of cold water to a prophet will receive a prophet’s reward”

    • Angie Emara says:

      You are 100% right, John! It’s very much a similar concept! Thank you so much for your comments and I am truly grateful for this exchange :) God bless!

  6. Jennifer says:

    Dear Angie and family,
    First, my condolences to you all. But second, I wish you strength and wisdom in your struggle. It sounds like you are doing a wonderful job. Your children are lucky to have you as their mom.
    All the best!

  7. Jill Ochoa says:

    JazakAllah Angie,
    Reading your story brought tears to my eyes, as I worry for my own health, I now feel blessed.
    I can not even imagine the pain of watching helplessly as your children suffer.
    Far better to suffer myself then to see a child in pain.
    My prayers are with your family. May Allah continues to give you strength. Thank you for sharing your Jihad.

  8. Nisar Baloch says:

    you are doing good job and may ALLAH GIVE YOUR CHILD TO HEALTH AMEEN

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